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November 08 Those Are MineThose are mine,
bursting with psychedelic colours.
I could lend you some of mine,
your life needs colours.
Everyone just need to wait,
i'll be done with delivery.
I don't care if you need it,
i'll still give it away.
My heart is weak,
its alright.
Laughter will do the trick.
Criticism and shame
i digest them away,
to keep me in the league.
Those colours are mine,
don't you take it away.
I'm as fragile as i can be,
just one push
will send me spiralling.
Those colours are mine,
please make them stay.
Julius Kensan
( Sentimental Freak )
October 15 The larkI won't let you go,
I'll search for you.
Over the magazine booth,
In the obituaries,
down to the cemeteries.
I won't allow you,
to sleep alongside angels.
Dig up your bone,
deep from the grave.
Threw them into a maze.
You had the fun,
all the while back then.
I'm your fugitive,
an experiment for you.
Somehow i escaped,
not without moon, giving
me a great chase.
Now, the table has turned.
I'll have the nice time.
You're now trapped.
That's your plight,
but i won't leave so soon.
Julius Kensan
( Sentimental Freak )
No moreIt gets a little scary,
if things were to succeed,
whether i could believe.
Lord, might have a plan,
teaching me lesson through pain.
No more feelings,
gone are the anxieties.
Ecstatic seems so distant,
where have they gone?
Even if i wanted them,
will they ever come back?
No one is ever good enough,
not even my own self.
But you were across the street,
calling and looking for me.
Why did i fixed my gaze away?
No more crushes,
gone are the blushes.
kicked out my alcoholic self,
no more bottles to calm my mind.
Will he ever be back?
Such a pity,
we're just strangers,
we're just passerby,
but for love,
you and i grew.
Julius Kensan
( Sentimental Freak ) October 14 The rainThe rain is dangerous,
with its acid tongue, you should know.
Dropping against our will,
pulling down the quirky mood.
More than what we bargain for,
now getting out of control.
The rain is dangerous,
with its motive, i didn't know.
Wearing the trees down,
stripping them of morality.
Tapping on my window,
licking my dry feet.
The rain is dangerous,
with its innocence, we all know.
No use of sobbing,
tears are lost among them.
With its raw beauty,
only a loner will understood.
Julius Kensan
( Sentimental Freak )
September 27 Not afraidThey claimed that i'm cold and impatient.
What an irony to be told.
For my blood is warm and flowing.
I wouldn't want them to understand,
i'm not an open book.
Let it be filled with secret codes
and my heart is the only key.
The elephant is sharing limelight
with the rat.
I'm in the risk of being a brat.
Not even a dozen coquettes
can change my stubborn mind.
Just give me one wish only,
i'll be able to grant all greeds.
Crushing stars straight from the sky
and smear it on my fragile face.
Everyone will apologise someday,
for my pride has ascended the throne.
Crying on their bended knees,
i'll make them work for mercy.
I'm not afraid anymore,
matador will beg to differ.
I'll have them acknowledge me,
there is only one room for my desire.
Others will be thrown and stomped
while i watch with satisfaction.
I am not afraid.
For I am born to do this.
Julius Kensan
( Sentimental Freak )
September 20 The seperationYour silence didn't help me at all,
emptying my thoughts and heart.
Pulling me backward,
while i'm striving forward.
Nothing is fulfilled,
nothing is promised.
The sweetness ran dry,
i'm all detached and sundry.
We're moving slowly,
yet sure of where we're heading.
Heading to a seperation.
Even when i'm close to losing you,
you left me hanging,
not exactly a good feeling.
You're still not listening.
Your words i couldn't keep,
Its all left in the bin.
The sweetness ran dry,
i'm all detached and sundry.
We're moving slowly,
yet sure of where we're heading.
Heading to a seperation.
And i'm torn...
Slowly waiting for the day,
where we'll reach our destination.
Julius Kensan
( Sentimental Freak )
September 14 Man who walks on the seaI knew that i,
am always about myself.
Your promises i wanted to claim,
my flaws i wanted to hide it.
Last of days intruded my dream.
All that i could do,
was to watch helplessly.
Too many crowns to be worn,
sparkling bejeweled pieces
did nothing for my humility.
Traded it for dusty ragged cloth
and a torn down raft.
Set sail into the horizon,
hoping to find the legendary
Man who walks on the sea.
Lightning took a split second peep,
clouds gather for a bully.
And i didn't want to be scared.
Moon and stars fleed to the sun,
sipping coffee as they watched.
Waves built up slowly,
towering like a giant wall.
Turning me into one cell
in the sea.
Now is my chance,
rumor has it,
He will appear
when i look hard enough...
Julius Kensan
( Sentimental Freak )
September 13 KillerYour smile still floats through my head.
I want to wait for the day,
where you crawl into my heart.
Let my innocence kills your soldiers.
I'll make it easier,
to invade your heart.
Our desires entwine together.
My perfume and your sweat
got mix into one.
Where we drip through love.
A killer concoction
which will kill both of us.
You have to sacrifice your blood,
as proof of your love.
Painting my nails maroon.
I'll watch with bated breath
as you reach into me
and lift me somewhere else.
Our desires clash together.
My purr and your whisper
got mix into one.
Where we scream through love.
A killer melody
which will kill both of us.
Julius Kensan
( Sentimental Freak )
September 12 Nothing moreThe more i sing, the less it hurts.
Beaming through the night sky,
without a single star in sight.
So dark and moody,
close to scary.
There is nothing more to do,
to you it was never enough
and you will never say.
And i always know,
i'm helpless in
fulfilling your goals.
It kills my feelings,
to make me wait,
to make me say it out.
That our race ends here.
No more explanations
just pure good intentions.
Julius Kensan
( Sentimental Freak )
Passing byFever is catching up on my mind,
all i do is dazing against the wall.
Slowly burning up my desires,
going straight to absolute zero.
Everything gets haywired,
coiling up my pain.
Time keeps passing by,
Everywhere i go, reminds me of you.
Time keeps passing by,
and i don't know what to do.
All we ever said was thrown out,
straight out the window,
where it got torn by maddening crowd
of me.
You wouldn't tell me at all.
This is not communication.
Time keeps passing by,
everywhere i go, it reminds me of you.
Time keeps passing by,
and i don't know what to do.
Maybe i was right,
i still don't belong to you.
Julius Kensan
( Sentimental Freak ) September 10 Oh my LordI want to caress your face.
YES, i really do.
I'm not in control of myself.
Don't know what to do next.
Drop you off somewhere.
Smack you in the face.
Push you down the stairs.
You'll never believe that i like you,
I'm so sick that i'm getting sick.
Oh my Lord,
What's going on?
I thought it was fun!
Where is the remedy?
Someone pass it to me.
You'd think it was fake.
Then convince me otherwise.
How much does my illness cost?
It's not funny at all.
I wanted to sing in subway.
Like how Goldlion did.
OH MY LORD!
I don't think it's fun.
I don't want to be there,
where Van Gogh once did.
Oh my Lord...
Julius Kensan
( Sentimental Freak )
September 08 I don't wantDon't run, don't cry.
Just pay them back.
Better yet, pay them double.
But if you have looked pass it,
none of it really matters.
I want to sleep.
To really sleep well.
Don't want to care about it.
Your messages,
your grouses,
your sweet talks.
Everything started to irk me.
When to act or behave?
It is still unknown,
so confused like no one.
Voice got toned down,
so low, i'm whispering.
I'm not sure where i'm heading.
Where is it?
Or how to move?
My own path.
My vices.
My Jesus.
All of you, please don't leave.
Still one of them got to go.
Julius Kensan
( Sentimental Freak ) May 06 My wayI try to read my fortune,
through the innocent clouds.
It makes me guilty.
what have become of my heart,
its either happy or sad,
still i'm a young lad.
I want to do it my way,
singing a psychedelic song
into everyone's lifeless smile.
And pirouetting along their
impeccable trot.
Your scent refused to leave me,
it got me dreamy and chirpy.
Aphrodite would approve.
There's so much more
that you didn't know.
I want to do it my way,
taking everyone high up
way above their heebie-jeebies.
And pirouetting along their
impeccable trot.
Julius Kensan
( Sentimental Freak ) May 05 DruggyI'd like to withdraw,
out of my body,
out of my analytical mind.
Watching everyone tumbling
out of control.
I'll be smiling to myself,
while everyone's getting moony,
and the other word that rhymes.
So pull my troubles away.
let it be gone,
let it be imprinted
upon that pure and sinless canvas.
When i'm back again,
i want to be different.
A filial son, a loyal friend,
a great lover and a better man.
Julius kensan
( Sentimental Freak ) CrashI didn't want to get too involved,
i pull my hands away,
i turn my head away.
Yet you're the sweet one,
dripping in the melting chocolate,
never fails to make me smile.
Somehow we'll crash...
Slowly crashing...
I'll watch us crash...
You'll be smiling
while i'm dying.
Your mouth sends sensation
down my hungry ear,
filling my empty desires.
My core is shaken slowly,
and you'll be creeping in
lifting me off the ground.
I'll sing you a rock song
and you'll forget why we ever got along.
Somehow we'll crash...
Slowly crashing...
I'll watch us crash...
You'll be smiling
while i'm crashing.
Julius Kensan
( Sentimental Freak ) May 03 WomanYou are a strong woman,
i want you to see it,
not through my eyes
but through your heart.
People have let you down,
you try to brush it aside,
somehow you still can't.
You thought i didn't care
but i see it all.
You're a strong woman,
don't let the world pull you down
because you deserves so much better.
You've wondered all along,
whether you're a good girl,
wife, daughter-in-law
or a great mother.
You got lost in your thoughts,
now the devil is trying
to steal your life away.
You thought i didn't know
but i see it all.
You're a strong woman,
don't let the world pull you down
because you deserves so much better.
Just when you thought you're not,
be proud of yourself,
held your head high,
because you're a strong woman.
Julius Kensan
( Sentimental Freak ) March 10 DenyYour smile, i want to frame it.
Place it high up on the wall,
Where one can see but not touch.
But sorry that i've to kill you.
Can't let you stay for long.
Go on and deny my love.
My love for you.
Deny.
It's not like you believe
in my everlasting love.
You smell stays on my bed.
It's good in a bad way.
In a totally bad way.
Anymore of your flashback,
will prompt me to shoot you.
But i said, "Oh, come on!"
let's not turn to violence.
Go on and deny my love.
My love for you.
Deny.
It's not like i believe
in your everlasting love.
Julius Kensan
( Sentimental Freak ) February 21 RemindTomorrow will be lost without you,
that's not how i want it to be.
I'll trail you down the path,
just to find you happy.
I can't just let it be
but you're not mine to keep.
You're not mine
and it's a remind.
I'll pluck the stars right down,
and smears it on your face.
Since i can't rip you out
and give my heart peace.
I can't just let it be
but you're not mine to keep.
You're not mine
and it's a remind.
I'll stroke your name on the sand.
While i just sit and stare,
until the sea devour it up.
But you're not gone like that.
I can't just let it be
but you're not mine to keep.
You're not mine
and it's a remind.
Julius Kensan
( Sentimental Freak ) January 31 Dirty boyThe boy thinks he got it all,
stupidity and foolishness
he got it all.
Talents he got it all.
Too bad, its all too soon,
blame it on his shortcomings.
So what you're going to do?
You're a dirty boy,
you've smeared Master's name.
So who's going to save you?
Who's going to pick you up?
No use looking up,
your tears won't work anymore.
The alarm is on,
where are you going to run?
You're too guilty to run back,
where you once belong.
It's all because you think
you're a dirty boy.
You invest on the temporary happiness,
it always go down and gone.
So what you're going to do?
You're a dirty boy,
you've smeared Master's name.
So who's going to save you?
Who's going to pick you up?
No use looking up,
your tears won't work anymore.
Julius Kensan
( Sentimental Freak ) January 27 Love by orderIf words could explain,
i'd not have to talk.
i might get the risk
of malapropism.
That clear blue sky,
how i wanted to touch it.
So close to my heart
that it cheers and hurts.
If this is a song,
i'd include me and you.
Maybe i'm a mousy,
to afraid to say your name.
Getting the risk of condemnation.
So i can't speak,
i don't dare to think.
It'll get me nowhere.
What if i blurred the line?
Will everyone change
their point of view?
Tomorrow has become a dream
where i try to live.
Yesterday i thought nothing of it,
today it became significant.
When guitar pricks...
Where heads roll...
What smile means...
Why so...
Julius Kensan
( Sentimental Freak ) |
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